This Sucks!

Pardon the expression, but this week has totally, utterly, miserably, sucked. I'm honestly really kind of angry at what a sucky week this really was.

I'm sitting here trying to think of something clever to write for this week's entry in "Fate and Circumstance", but I just keep thinking of how much I didn't like this week.

On Monday, my poor little one-year old grandson had to have surgery to fix a totally, utterly, botched circumcision. Let me tell you, it rips your heart out to see that perpetually happy child crying in pain. The good news is that once he heals, he should be fine. I pray he heals VERY quickly.

Tuesday: sucked...our sweet, comical dog, Timmy, started to again have a series of cluster seizures. This had happened about a month ago and we were able to pull him through. I had hopes we could do it again, even though they had intensified. This was a battle we had dealt with for the last 3 years and I thought for sure we could do it again.

Wednesday really was horrible. The seizures couldn't be controlled and decisions had to be made. I wanted to write a tribute about our crazy, sweet, lovable Timmy but it hurts too much. We said goodbye to him Wednesday afternoon.

I  don't remember much of Thursday. The emotions and lack of sleep from the prior three days really affected me. I know I went to work early but I guess I just tried not to think about much.

The last two days I can't access the college's "Blackboard" where all of our assignments are listed. Great, I can't get my homework done. More stress and aggravation. I just wanted to get everything done so I can relax. Sucks!

I guess I have a choice. I can look at these circumstances and say my fate is to be depressed and feel miserable.

Nope. Time to take the bull by the horns and un-suck the weekend. I'm so done with the suckiness.

I choose to think about all of the kindnesses and professionalism that was shown by the wonderful staff at The Children's Urology Center and the fact the doctor repaired my grandson.

I choose to remember how much joy Timmy brought to our lives and the wonderful impact that adopting an "unwanted" animal brought to our lives for nearly nine years. Anyone who met him knew how awesome he was. If ever there was a dog who could have been a stand up comedian, it was Timmy!

I choose to count how blessed I am to have the outpouring of understanding support from wonderful people who know the pain of losing a beloved pet, a member of our family, and the fact that Timmy was surrounded by a staff of veterinary medical professionals that truly loved and fought for him.

I'm blessed to work at Heather House Studio, where my boss's have been wonderfully supportive this week by allowing me to take the time to help with my grandson. They also allowed me to bring Timmy to work with me so I could monitor him on Tuesday and understood when I didn't go to work when we had to make that horrible decision on Wednesday.

I'm thankful today is supposed to be a nice day. We are going to take the family to the pumpkin patch and take tons of happy pictures.

As far as the homework goes, I'm going to say a prayer that the site begins to work. If not, I will deal with it later. Today will not suck. :)